[member=1]Jon[/member] Damn you, damn you lol.
We aren't going until 2018 so I can't book until next year. This year is operation clear the credit cards (and if I come back in a tonne of debt I won't even be surprised lol)
Right where are those big earning pages.....thanks for the motivation big guy! Here we go!!
I'm baaaaaaaaaaaack!!!
What an interesting read this diary was. So much has changed in the year I have been AWOL.
So what has happened. I got hit with the depression tree......every damn branch. Not a surprise as I suffer daily but this was particularly bad. It caused ripples in my marriage and involved a lot of building back up. Everything came to a head in the Autumn and I decided that I needed to make some changes. My husband and I sorted all of our finances out. We remortgaged to swallow up the debt as this was something that was really causing issues with my health. I feel sick when I think of the extra interest we will be paying but it has really helped me psychologically so in my book that is a huge win.
I was working 19 hours a week at a high street bank and that involved working every Saturday. I hardly saw my husband and I felt I was missing my kids. They are now at school so two days a week I sat home alone. It caused me to sink lower every week. I applied for one job. I saw it by chance and applied for a laugh really. It was Admin within a local school, 20 hours a week, term time.....TERM TIME!!! Don't get me wrong I put a lot of work into the application form. I visited the school to get a feel but I really didn't get the vibe. To my surprise I got offered an interview...on my day off. It all felt a little bit like fate. I went to the interview kind of set in my mind that I wasn't really sure I even wanted the job. I got there and had admin tasks to complete. Mundane, simple and I felt beneath me. I was actually quite frustrated by the time the formal interview began. I answered questions diligently...."why are you leaving your current job?"......"I actually love my job. It doesn't fit with family life but I wasn't actively looking to leave"......then I got asked about priorities etc to which I replied with the phrase "my family comes first". I told them about how my children come higher on the list than work. I actually found myself trying to sabotage it. Right at the end another surprise....."OK, interview over so now just tell us about you....." SILENCE! I actually enjoy interviewing because I am good at it. But talking about ME. I don't do that so well. I had made a decision to keep the mental health under wraps as I didn't want it to be the influence. So I said......DISNEY. I am a Disnerd (I don't think I used that phrase).
To my surprise they called me that afternoon. As soon as they finished the last interview they offered me the job. I nearly turned it down. But I didn't......
And it was the best move I made. I haven't been happier work wise. The balance is great and the atmosphere is good. I am good at what I do and if my kids need me.....I go.
What else happened? Oh yeah! So 2018 for Disney. Well that is still in the pipeline. Only we also went last month. I am still in complete shock and for our family it has brought us back together. I'm sure all holidays do that but our love for all things Disney as a family really realigned our love for it and for one another. Fantastic family time. Kids were brilliant and loved being with us 24/7 and we loved being with them.
It went from a pretty trashy year to me feeling back to my less crazy self.
Some of the downsides. Due to reasons I won't go in to I have had to stop the blog and remove it. I had to stop Jamberry and hide all of my internet presence in general. Was a bit scary for a while but hopefully it has all settled down. Sadly though I was enjoying blogging and just starting to find my rhythm especially in the mental health area. So for now I have about a dozen blog posts unedited and waiting to see the light of day. Maybe the future will see that happening.
My new goal.....pay for Disney next August.....MYSELF! I want to treat my husband and children. For everything they go through living with me. And for the support they give me day in day out. No matter how I treat them, they are always there to support me. They see through my demons. So I want to be the one who funds our next family retreat. I need around £600 for 12 months. I am not touching the family budget. Our lifestyle is to remain the same. This should be an above and beyond. I did nearly £3k before in a few months. I know it is so doable.
And whats more.....I know I can do it.